exhaustion

That was one of the hardest Linkedin posts to write. Yes, I'm open to part time opportunities. Yes, I have built up uncurated knowledge. And, I'm looking for opportunities to round out my experience. I want to continue in deep tech. Now more than ever we need more people that are going to push us to net zero as fast as possible.

And yes, I'm tired of being ignored for my contributions to the carbon-climate space. Open science and source works on merit, and if people don't credit me when its due, I can't prove my experience and book contracts. It's been since the end of 2016 since I last had a paying corporate contract. Yes, I am drinking the startup kool-aid in self-belief, and she-can-do-it too. I went though my savings and liquid Roth funds and now on to my IRA (just under $158.3k since '17) while living in the San Francisco Bay Area with paying a monthly rent of $450-1000, totaling about $71.6k, with an average of $833 during these years. I have some stocks I can sell to tide me over, but still pretty painful, even if I don't have any debt accruing interest. Yes, I'm gambling, that I can get a bunch of 1099s and pay back my Roth and IRA, or get the business fully revenue positive and upwards. And even more so that I will make back enough to afford a home in my native San Francisco.

Even more heartbreaking, I'll be soon moving out of San Francisco. It's the end of living with dishonest housemates -- sometime later you can ask me about their gaslighting and BS.

I'm classified as good risk rated over $30k and excellent with a credit score >800. I've never been late on my rent, shared utilities, or household supplies. I get it, my soon to be former housemates may not be familiar with people that don't lie, but my word should be able to be trusted to deliver on deals worth multiple million. My entire business will one day rest on my word and ability to back my contractual obligations in a mutually agreed upon contracts. And hopefully one day it will be a term-sheet will be worth multiple million, and more. So yes, I take lying very seriously and no I haven't lied to them.

So this is it, if you are forced into living below some income threshold because of extreme savings; you are suddenly forced to accept petty liars and minor cheats?

Looking for ways to build a startup when you only have your savings? Looking to save and trying to find the deals that are below market rent?

Don't live with people that you don't know, and hardwood floors are easier to clean than carpets.

I'm so over it.